I’m going to take the time today not to talk about our
little peanut but to talk about my husband.
Today is Father’s Day, and while everyone has already gone
out and bought their Father’s day cards I couldn’t bring myself to buy one this
year because they honestly didn’t describe, sum up, or speak to what kind of
Dad you are. So I decided to steal our son’s blog and write my own.
I remember the first time you met Marek in the operating
room, I had to watch your face since I couldn’t see anything over the drape. I
knew the second you laid eyes on him because they lit up with pure joy, you could
barely get out the words, “It’s a boy!” That moment will forever remain one of
the happiest moments of my life, and I knew right then and there that you were going to be
an AMAZING father.
I wish all of our days were that joyous but I have also
watched you go through hell with our son. I have had my crappy days when
dealing with all of this, whenever Marek would hit a low point I felt like I
was drowning in heartache. However, when
I saw you hit a low point I felt a whole new kind of burning heartache, one that
takes your breath away. I don’t know if it was because you were so much
stronger than me with keeping it together and I rarely got to see you have these low points, or that I felt more helpless because
I couldn’t help our son or my husband in their time of pain. I’ll never know
what made my heart break so much on those few nights that I saw your emotions
exposed. What I do know is that I saw a man that would give up ANYTHING for his
son and that his happiness depended on the happiness and well-being of his son
which makes you the best father for Marek.
Marek is so lucky to have a dad like you. You have shown him
so many things these last two years without even realizing it, but I have. You
have shown him how to be strong. I’m sure you never thought twice about this,
but every day that you went to work while Marek was at home with me because you
knew that you had to in order to give Marek the best medical care possible,
proved just how strong you are. I commend you for having the strength and focus
to do so because emotionally I couln’t leave the house. You have shown him how
to be caring. You will never know how much it meant to me when you would hold
me when I felt like the world was crashing down on our family after Marek’s
diagnosis and tell me that everything would be okay. You have shown Marek how to
love, through the love you have given him. He adores you and I see it every
day, he makes sure you are watching when he does something new, he lights up
with laughter when you come home from work, and HE IS ALWAYS SAYING YOUR NAME! So
although our little peanut might not be talking he watches EVERYTHING and
through your actions he is learning how to be an extraordinary person.
You have had some terribly low times being a dad so far but
I think that this year has blessed you with the happy times that you deserve.
What sets you a part from most dads is that you notice and APPRECIATE the
little things. (Probably the only gift that has come out of this ugly
rollercoaster ride we have been on). I love when I get to see how Marek makes
you laugh like when he is surrounded by 100 toys but the only thing he is
interested in is the cell phone you are on and won’t leave you alone until you
give it to him (which you always do). I love how you laugh when Marek decides
to throw almost all of his cut up spaghetti on Olive Garden’s floor, and keep
laughing while you’re on the floor picking it up. Most of all I love how
Marek’s laugh makes you laugh and then you both end up laughing harder. There
has been way to many tears shed in our family since Marek’s diagnosis and I am
glad they are finally
being replaced with smiles and laughter.
Happy Father’s Day hun, we love you so much!!!!!!!
